To the fiendz...

Revelation, Resurrections, are you human? Does your blood leak out from your wounds. flesh for martyrs, love your brethren
would you give your life to save them? Or do you just care for yourself?
To the fiendz that make it all possible to the ones that live on the street filling up minds with despair
through the dregs of addiction toxify this fucking earth
concrete lives and chemical low degradation my children of hell shall convene there giving up blood to survive
so they fiend and they beg to make everything different it seems so wrong
and i wont make any promises that i cant keep to you
but one promise i can keep you’ll never take my soul
to the thieves that make it all possible to the sickening heretics and the ones who slaughter there own
to the most righteous of murderers the loneliest who sacrifice dreams into fires
daylight bends into nite at illusionary moments and the one who barely survives will eventually be the voice
that is taunting and screaming leaving you void of your dignity now whose believing
never make a hopeless man do
Hope hopeless things
never take your life into your
own hands i say
lack of fear means lack of faith
so what do you believe
i am not ashamed of who i am
i am not ashamed...
i couldn’t ever believe in a word you say delicately when you speak it fades away no one can stop me when im in this state
these entities demented
fantasy of a harmony so discontent premonitions of your eyes so evident
bled dead you cannot trust me 
death engulfs eyes blood soaked twytching deformed
damn your gun feels so good when its down my throat
and it feels even better as it blasts out the back of my skull
now you will know what it feels like to live in fear 
couldn’t be the color in your eyes
delicate deformities so deep inside
never gonna be the one who hides from entities
I crave
I need
Ill do anything... 

 Till the Morning Light 

I took a little bit and now i need some more i swear i heard your voice coming up thru the floor rain on the window paine and blood is on the door and I’ve been staring into my shadow for two days or more I forgot your name your the one i love walk to me quietly invisibly forward show me your hands i don’t care who you are ill lay in heavens arms once and for all but in my darkest of dreams i do the things that paint this room red and i wont ever give in until the candle burns right through my hands but in my darkest dreams i do the things that paint these eyes red and i wont ever give in...Don’t you dare hold your breath for many only speak and then do nothing in the red of eyes in the dead of nite stare into infinity and watch it collapse from the pale and bloodless look the innocent lives you took back to where they belong in the arms of hellback to where they belong...and i awoke disfigured and i prayed that the sun would never shine and i resemble a savior transmutating into another kind premeditated unconscious enclosures searing deep into my retina destroying the innocent everlasting melodious prophecy 7 minutes to the hour let darkness fall on this place where we dwell did i awake or go to sleep i cant tell don’t even speak there’s someone in the hall thank god he’s finally come to kill us all demented
and decomposing devilish darkened and deconstructing deanimated desensitized so detrimental in denial and beauty the haunting lament of the foreboding searing deep into my retina destroying i swallow razors and drink the blood of an angel drank a little bit and i had a vision pathetic prolific ways i fill my pockets with all these incisions now I’ve been locked in here for days but its not all that simple when i keep falling in love with the mistakes and I’m afraid that I’m awake and fate is floating above screaming on down to the second floor cuz i got this fear let me hear ya say screaming on down to the second floor that i need some sleep let me hear ya say cuz i got these visions...the humanity in your eyes as you begin to realize your frailty’s photographs in the back of your mind there they will dwell...marking in beauty and kept only for deception i sink my teeth into every single love that I’ve had mark this day...the attributes of this ritualistic prison cover your windows in blankets that you tore from your bed...hiding shaking never resting pale as walls your thoughts are etched in crawling on the ground I’m searching for someone to take me...back to where we belong... 

Somnambulist 

blood of the fallen, a somnambulist wrectched and prophetic slaves to the system who carves out her own eyes with razorblades leaving a blister it takes form evaporative transluscent prisms reflecting they shatter infesting all i see in a tongue i lace with insanity a phantomous illumination i will never be painted on the walls with the blood of a paranormal cataclysm i will never see feed upon the saints and eradicate the elemental sacrificial bones that break in a dream of isolated ambience i find myself in cold sweats wide awake cuz I’ve got punctures in my lungs gonna tear me out fucking rip me out suffocate disintegrate love will never penetrate these walls i build with my symptoms conniptions inflictions a slave to my symptoms Denial- I’m just fine don’t touch me clairvoyance- these beings confront me through violence i am deconstructing my soul by removing my eyes from my skull just to see or feel something hallucinogenic pathetically craving what kills me and destroys the voice that’s relentlessly echoing carving a vision of what once was, what has been could be anything but these purple angelic pupils that haunt my dreams wide awake and falling asleep where i stand I’m the saint who prays with slit wrist at midnite for the moonlight for the sunset for the experience of the sickening decay if i had a reason just to breathe another breathe i wouldn’t need this phantomous illumination deep inside painful accusations resonating thru these conversations spoken in the tongue of psychotropic demonized pitiful acidic catastrophic condescending paranoid delusionary penetrating finalized so murderous the conversation that i heard between the voices venomous and complicated somewhat fantasized
i could be the one to hold and love and uplift u or i could be the one to devastate disintegrate and move to impale u i feed on the wounds that my manic episodes do heal or dig further too reveal the degenerative failures inside all of u I’m fucking digging in my soul I’m fucking carving out a hole I’m the saint who prays with slit wrists at midnite cuz I’ve got punctures in my lungs 

Illumination 

And I really don’t think you know who you are so I reach out my hand but you’ve fallen to far and you choke on the love that you
claim as your own but in darkness you still feel so alone and I wonder when you’ll realize all the frailties of your life My soliloquy of decadent disarray the bloody snow from the fallen angels that now surround me the candlelight is burning
Will I ever get what I need or am I destined to crawl below
The candlelight is burning the candlelight has been burning for days
Break break break these are the weapons I forge from all the disgust that I hold deep in my heart and I cannot escape it its digging
deep and its paralyzing you look so pitiful and useless here
7 days to realize just what you are the silence is so deafening
And when you fall back down ill meet you are you breathing
So ill take it and ill squeeze it and ill shove it way deep down in my chest ill never give it up for anything ill never give it up
Paranoid, paralyzed, all your faith lost inside
Devastate mesmerize
And on the day when I realized my own humanity I sat down on the sidewalk which ran along the streets which I have dwelled for so long
And although it was 2am the streetlights were illuminating so brightly I could’ve sworn it was just before the break of dawn oh but of all the transgressions that make a man so defeated inside each moment lost in time
I dug my knuckles into the pavement and the wind began to blow
All the love all the fear walk alone shed a tear you will know who you are on the edge of the earth I am meek we are strong sun reflects ambience broken hearts ruined dreams bound by what we conceive devastate mesmerize no more pain no more lies you will know who you are on the edge of the earth candlelight burns away never thought id see the day finally you realized
And every thought that you have resemble the lies that you tell yourself
Delusionary and insolent your manifesting you every fear
Dwelling into your narcissistic state of mind oh but the suffering will no longer behold you all your love all your life
I am your deepest fear infesting all you experience searing vibrant within these walls and that’s where ill stay forever

 Of Blood and Grace

Climb in between the dissonance crouch down and cover your headthe impact is drawing near the sacrifice u made in absolute purity slain in mercy and stained with regret Will i ever become just who i am? All these painful delusions i live with And i dream more then i
could ever live so i crumble and i suffer You wont forgive me you wont forget this you’ll always remember ill stick the blade in and twist and turn it take it out and show you your reflection in the side of the blade the last temptation the final revelation staring into the mirror looking back at myself as the resolution fades in and out of consciousness my pupils enlarge my spine is contorting this sacrifice this sacrifice is all i have a dialogue drenched in vanity incinerated dilated marauded landscapes tongues torn from their mouth i can still hear them speaking dig out with a needle this lifeless reflection i promise to always be your perfect failure redundant and blessed under shards of ice get down on your knees push your head down further beg to be exalted sacrificial malice look straight up at the sky i still cant fucking hear you..Sacrificed in the name of God Sacrificed...I’ve got visions that make me twytch sow another stytch shovel one more ditch someday ill die in the name of it oh but my skin is numb to the cut 'a continual sacrifice this shame that dwells this shame that dwells...separate the body from the mind these places you’ll always remain a shattered distortion of blood and grace play the fucking victim you wear it so well...no more will i breathe no longer will i see...cuz here in this moment i cease to exist...and you may find yourself beyond the boundaries of this universe balancing between the stars that light the way oh but in reality you’ve separated yourself so tell me what do you have left to behold? this is the last chance for your malice and your redemption so tell me what you’ve
truly become staring into the mirror looking back at myself staring into the mirror looking back at myself resolution fades seeking forgiveness for all that I’ve done

Requiem

As I open up the door to find you I blink and then your gone given to infiniti blanket in meditative obsession memories now do race through my mind symphonies of thought I’m unable to find to fill the void between my soul and my thoughts here is how it all began
You tortured heart left to trembling hands that tried to grip the sand locked in an hourglass the grey shapes that blind you the demons will find you and lead you back home you satisfied the craving when all your raving lunacy brought you to your knees and I still remember the words you spoke you’ll never leave And I’m still waiting for you to return but the truth is your better off locked far away
And as I look beneath the floors where you once dwelled I’m finding evidence of how you must have felt a book of photographs containing your own face but missing your eyes and piles of razorblades and by your bedside lays a book of half finished venomous scriptures tale of calamity and crumbling existence humanities frailties and divine resistance and as you know watch me wander through madness craving all my complicated festering sadness believing all these walls are closing around me echoing all these thoughts back through my head ill satisfy the craving when all my raving lunacy brings me to my knees and I still remember the words you spoke they’ll never leave Lay on your back in cloudy fields of forever look at the clouds in brilliant patterns so clever disintegrate into the earth and remember the feelings we shared about our sickening surrender and I just don’t know how to explain what you took when you left me a piece of my mind my soul my breath my existence leaving only moments tattooed in my memories and for the love of god I cannot accept what infiniti took from me I cry out on theses sleepless nights hoping that you’ll somehow feel my energy you satisfied the craving when all your raving lunacy brought you too your knees and I still remember the words you spoke they’ll never leave.  

Oxygen 

Deep in the stillness of the storm I lay my body down to rest between these particles of oxygen in liquid form To leave my home behind and walk to the place where I first believed all along the way I past where I fell in love with oxygen and I though that I knew what it means to be fearless to be grateful all along I merely dwelled in the crevices of the hands that hold me downDeep in the stillness of the earth I lay eternity down on its back and wrap my hands around its neck to try and choke out Untie me from this chaos I’m bound to these memories I walk thru sanctity clarity that I found when all I did was breathe Remember what it feels like to be stripped of your dignity in the moonlight shown in the light for what you truly are no more secrets yourare exposed and the lunacy that’s coursing through your veins is blacking out your dreamsSail on move on away 

No Conscience 

Suffer with me here child, let me tell u tales of lies and love and destiny and then I’ll watch u swallow the pill hallucinate deep in yourself and tell me how it feels to be alive stare in to the eyes of a lunatic and say how does it feel when every vein in your face splits and runs rite down your spine crawl into the body of a demigod and lay down between the third and fourth vertabrae and chew thru the bone Stare in to the eyes of god and begin to say I don’t fucking believe in you walk into the gates of hell and begin to pray that when the gate shuts it cuts your throat with your body right here and your head in hell Suffer the consequence of your sinful actions straight from the hand of god how does it feel? To be in an altered state no conscience now I can begin to execute the malevolent heavenly one and then speak to apparitions in a tongue born of  a malcontent demented anomaly dying inside of me altered state no conscience tell me how it feels to live a lie everyone I love I will randomly eradicate for when I twitch and salivate my hands continue to shake I can barely breathe completely numb to every word you say oh how I love to suffer three days of night buried underground stare into the sun don’t ever look down for in the moment that your eyes are adjusting your fears will consume you paranormal
state, subliminal embedded fate, a tortured encrypted sadistic and blistering wound that’s been inflicted as I Suffer the consequence
of my sinful actions straight from the hand of God and now you will know how it feels to be wretchedly addicted to the sinful decadence that’s transposing within What I’m believing is what I am thinking and what I am thinking is how I am feeling how I’m feeling is how I am living and where I am living is where I am dying and I raise my hands straight up to the sky and it burns down my arms away slowly enveloping my soul with a flame that can lacerate and degradate the essence of faith in me Suffer this consequence emotionless with no conscience and my father says I’m so worthless and my father says i'll never be free and I never have felt so alive then the day that I snapped back my neck and I died stared into the eyes of the Lord and screamed father please help me oh what have I done suddenly a lucid and paranoid anomaly begin to dig and reach deep inside of me removing my identity conscience and memories so I can commit these murderous things emotionless Rape me of my innocence take the little piece of hope I have and turn it
into a thousand  blades of divinities eloquence but if I can speak what’ll I say and if I cant hear how will I know it an altered state no conscience. 

Just How Far Down Do You wanna Go?

If I could I would rewrite the concepts of never ending memories out of context fading visuals of lethal injections and the most beautiful angels who dwell at the doors of infinity and cry rivers of blood that envelop me I suffocate for the ones who cannot breathe i'll scream and shatter my soul just to believe i'll tear apart my own vision and tranquility to blindly twitch under moonlit divinity if the sky opens up and you levitate open your arms rise don't be afraid In the darkest night what a beautiful sight as the impossible does blind you softly falling out of the sky knife deep in your eyes the impossible does blind you softly syncopation reacts and the spine retracts and the impossible does blind you softly with two holes in my head and one in my heart everyone can see inside me How Far Down Do You Wanna Go? How Far Down? close your eyes and inhale the voice of forever exposed in fright colliding fused interlocking exposed in fright I travel on at mind-bending velocities way past the assumed unapproachable infinity become a nonexistent molecular atrocity gather remains suffocate resurrect I just don't believe I crawl I scratch I beg and I still pray misery enveloping and suffocating never-ending corneas accumulating staring back at me and I fall for it so deep never has there ever been another being that without words can carve circles inside me spoken in tongues so deviant that I fall for the reasons and treasons that mutate like seasons compelled to somehow emulate the feelings that do trickle down my spine in sickening rituals the visuals that repeat in my minds eye echoing below
the voices and the choices that bring my will back down to its knees colliding with the evidence that I suffer when I cannot see blinded by psychotic neurotic deafening psychosis that will not stop until I commit something so sick oh would you mind if I carve you gently oh could I gouge out your eyes softly oh would you mind if I fucked you softly oh could I somehow scream you to sleep emulate evaporate the consequence of false events and calculate the stimulant hypothesis scratching out my own eyes choke and twitch sow the stitch from the memories of all of this these are all the holes that I bleed to feed with hate and greed for I can still not for the life of me satisfy the hunger it burns So where's the love that I need forever when those walls do collapse? 

Paradiseum

All the light fades away darkness now will decay every being on this earth I'm entranced by suddle ways movements and glances my way haunt me in mydreams live life like a dream where nothing is quite what it seems the light in your eyes does gleam burn bright for all to see describe with wordsthat do so softly take me away to another day crawl through my disarray and find myselfSomewhere beneath the clouds deep stares serenely sound similar to prophetic lunacy when we fall away rise and return someday our paths areintertwiningIn everlasting sunrays walk with the spirit unafraid and let the vision beginParadiseum. 

Acidic Epiphanies

This is the resurrection of the defeated in eleven years of suffering the cycles completed and a broken pathetic violent soul is now breathing darkest animosity and the purest of meaning the murderous parasitic call of the bleeding What do you see when you sleep my dear a thousand faces that do change from a pale dark star To blood red oh but its all a fantasy only lost inside a dream will you find reality and locked between what you see and what you feel in time will lead you into the depths of the heavenly divine Staring into a corrosive paranoid display of shadowed mirrors darkened sunlight and bloody decay I've dwelled in shadows and walked among the living dead only to rise above all the lies that you spread you spread nothing but absolute hatred anddespair risen from the ashes I am now aware This is the revelation of the unneeded who finds himself in an acidic reality breathing the hopeless and frail accusations that are feeding darkest animosity and the purest of meaning the murderous parasitic call of the bleeding how long till you play the victim again your fucking hideous form will never tear another tear from my chest built upon a tragedy wish you would open your eyes it deeply saddens me and when the heavens do fall open up your arms and say I always knew that my life would fucking end this way Staring into a pathetic effigy enflamed by every tortured encrypted soul who cries in vain those who will do in the name of what they don't understand those who live breathe and strive realize that they spread you spread nothing but absolute purity luminous blades dreams of the love of the kiss I know longer belong to this world calm suddle vibrations drag me by my neck across this darkened sky gotta let it goI belong to the sky as I drift and I dream and it feels as if I am dead levitating through caustic frail pathetic kinetic pollutants and vertigo gotta let it go There's just no way you can make me for when I twitch all alone only then can I never has there been a soul that can reach me for no matter how cancerous you seem to be cant let it go this visual painted in blood cant let it go I'm built only to deconstruct not to function echoed paralyzed devastating corruption perils tear my soul from my limbs I can't feel them no more tears lies love fears heartbeats love it's broken Metamorphosis reserved only for the gods I've been changing pinnacles of excess to the moonlight to the sunlight infest my body separate my soul from this earth because I cant let it go this visual painted in blood cant let it go